Category: On Tap
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When Life Finds You
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I’ve started this blog post a dozen times. Mostly because I don’t quite know how to write about a season of life that somehow seems to contain several lifetimes. It feels like I’ve lived through endings and beginnings that, under any other circumstances, might have each been their own chapter.…
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Well-Being is Messy. And That’s the Point.
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Healing is not tidy. It’s not linear. It’s not polite. We’ve been sold a myth that wellness is calm, curated, Instagram-able. That growth looks like pastel journals, green smoothies, morning yoga, and perfect self-care routines. That progress can be measured, quantified, neatly packaged. But that’s not real life. At least…
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Learning to Love the Thing I Most Wish Had Not Happened
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I would erase it in a heartbeat – and I wouldn’t undo who I’ve become. This is the paradox I live inside of. The thing I most wish had never happened shaped me in ways I never asked for, ways I wouldn’t have chosen, ways that sometimes feel like betrayal.…
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A Quarter Mile at a Time
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“I live my life one quarter mile at a time. Nothing else matters: not the mortgage, not the store, not my team and all their bullshit. For those ten seconds or less, I’m free.” Vin Diesel, Fast & the Furious Call it recklessness if you’d like. I call it the…
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The Beauty in Regret
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We’re taught to treat regret like proof that we failed. Like a warning sign. Like evidence that we chose wrong. Like something to avoid at all costs. But somewhere along the way, I realized I’m far less afraid of regretting what I did than I am of regretting what I…
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Finding Comfort in the New
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Most people I know find comfort in the familiar. Their routines are sacred. Their favorite restaurants are non-negotiable. They want “the usual,” in life and in lattes. The known feels safe. The predictable feels calming. And I feel the opposite. Familiarity makes me a little restless. Sometimes a little anxious.…
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I Didn’t Mean to Change Careers
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My career pivot didn’t start with a plan, but with a life turned upside down. I didn’t mean to change careers. I just wanted to survive breast cancer, figure out how to live with Li-Fraumeni Syndrome (LFS), keep my kids alive (they also have LFS), and maybe stop waking up…
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Living with Chronic Uncertainty
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There are people who live by five-year plans. Color-coded calendars. Life goals with deadlines. I was never one of those people, so why is this so hard? I wasn’t the five-year-plan type.I didn’t have my life mapped out on vision boards or bullet journals. I made choices, took chances, and…
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The Power of Falling Apart
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It started with my heart racing—no, sprinting. My breath turned shallow, my hands shook, my thoughts blurred. I heard words but couldn’t understand them. My mouth moved, but nothing came out. I was trapped inside my own body, unable to make sense of what was happening. No matter how much…
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The Silver Lining of (the City of) Hope
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Moving across the country is stressful under the best of circumstances. Doing it in the midst of a cancer diagnosis and a life-changing genetic discovery? Overwhelming doesn’t even begin to cover it. When my family relocated from North Carolina to San Diego, I had no idea just how much this…